Real Life Recap: Summer
I started this blog because I wanted it to be about REAL LIFE. The blogging/fashion/lifestyle world always seemed so perfect to me and I am not perfect, nor do I try to be (usually). I wanted this to be a space and place to talk about real stuff - which sometimes includes hair spray and beach reads, but also includes hardship and barfing in New Orleans (more on this later).
Y’all. It’s a lot harder than I thought to write about real shit. For one, I don’t know for sure if I want all these people's business up in my business. For two, I know the people I know don’t want me writing about their dirty laundry. For third, it takes guts. And some days I feel like I have those guts and other days I doubt myself and my abilities to write, think, or believe that others will care about what I have to say.
In the spirit of being REAL and talking about life in REAL terms - I wanted my summer recap to be genuine.
This summer has been an adventure, seriously. A LOT of people we REALLY LOVE got married and we enjoyed celebrating all of them. We traveled all over the country in our fancy new 2012 Honda CRV with our annoyingly spoiled corgi (Maybie - if you know her you love her!). And all of those things were great, they were awesome!
Just to name a few:
- Lots of people we love married their person and we got to be a part of it: Alex Anna, Cole, Billy, Emilee, Logan, Nolon, Adair and Walker.
- We traveled to New Orleans, Mobile, Zion National Park, Las Vegas, Destin, Los Angeles, Orlando, Memphis and Oxford.
- We spent a lot of time at the Springs or outside with people we love
- We renewed our lease in Austin (yup, in 500 square feet)
I tell you the good things because I don’t want this to seem like a pity party or come across as "mehh my life is so hard even though I have a great job and ultimately live a life of privilege" - and I am prone to drama soooo -
As much fun as the summer was I started to struggle with anxiety in weird and unusual ways. I threw up in a bathroom in New Orleans and it wasn't from cocktails or wine, but from being up all night with anxiety. I realized I like change more than I am willing to find rest and peace - I would rather just move and change and move and change (not really great when you are trying to settle in a new city and also have newly established anxiety). Like, really - what is my life? The combination of constant change + anxiety isn’t a winning one.
On top of that, I GOT REALLY HOMESICK (this has never happened to me before ever ever). I missed the South and wanted to move back to my safety net of Memphis and Oxford. Not to mention some other curve balls the world throws and keeps throwing at us between family, hurtful people and current events.
As the summer ends and Jake returns to a classroom and I keep doing what I am doing (whatever that is). I started exercising, trying to not eat dairy (IT'S SO HARD WHY DOES PIZZA NEED SO MUCH CHEESE - HELP ME), training for a half marathon, and investing in my city and the people that live in it. BUT, DANGIT, IT’S HARD.
This summer was great, but this summer was also hard. Just like moving to Austin has been great, but also really hard. This last year, despite what my story tells on Instagram has been tough on my mental health, my physical health, my marriage, my politics, and my beliefs.
There you have it, people, I was real. Stay tuned for more realness around the challenges of marriage, acne and a dog who every night insists I let her drink out of my water glass (like I said, she’s spoiled).